Yesterday was another really hard day for me. I spend periods of the day in tears. I am not sure what is going on except missing my family and my sister Joan that refuses contact with me (for 10 years). These things are really weighing on heavy on me.
Yesterday I had several "pep talks" from my friends and Marvin. On the way work as I was crying all of a sudden God took control and I started to think of talking to my grand kids in Georgia the day before. So by the time I got to work I was smiling and laughing about talking with 2 year Logan while he was eating popcorn and Emma on speaker phone telling Papa that she doesn't sing the last part of the ABC song anymore. I was okay for the most part during the day but I was training someone and answering a lot of questions throughout the day so I did not have time to cry that is until I got home then I unleashed it all on Marvin. Poor Marvin he had no idea I was feeling this bad. He gave me a talk. I really had my self all worked up and headed to bed early.
This morning as I was on the treadmill I was thinking of how I was only going to think of what I have and all the good that is coming in the next few days. Once again the Holy spirit touched me and said daughter follow me. I was reminded of Proverbs 3:5-6
5 Trust in the LORD with all your hear and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
So I am ready to head of to work today. I will be off early for my first good thing. I get to spend some time with my daughter Holly.
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