Early this morning I picked up a flyer that I had got in the mail with a reminder about getting my Mammogram. When making the appointment if you mentioned the flyer you got a free t-shirt when you went in for your appointment. I then recognized that this was not the Clinic that I go to for my Mammogram. I also recognized the Radiologist name and I froze. I got a sick feeling in my stomach. This is the woman that sent my daughter to surgery about 12 years ago.
Rewind 12 years ago. Our oldest daughter Jennifer had been having severe stomach pains for a while. She kept going to the Doctor (still a Pediatrician at the time) The Doctor finally ordered a CT scan. We got the call the day after Thanksgiving. The Nurse asked us to bring in Jennifer that afternoon so we could discuss the results of the CT scan. I immediately went into a panic attack while Marvin remained calm waiting to see what the news was. So we met with the Doctor and she said it appeared from the CT scan and the Radiologist report that there were several tumors on her kidneys, spleen, and liver. The Doctor referred us to an Oncologist (cancer specialist) for another consultation. He was puzzled that there was not an enlarged lymph node to test so he recommended exploratory surgery. The surgery was scheduled. Needless to say I was a nervous wreck while Marvin remained calm because he did not believe that there was anything wrong. In the surgery waiting room we saw all the other people that were waiting getting an update from a person sitting at a desk with a phone. We heard nothing and believe me I kept asking because it was taking a longer time than they predicted. Soon after that the surgeon appeared and ask us to step into a small room. He said I have good news and bad news. “The good news is Jennifer does not have cancer” I think I might I ran up and hugged him then I asked what is the bad news?“ he said "when we could not find anything we had to open her up to make sure that there was nothing, this resulted in about an 8 inch incision across her stomach." You can imagine our joy at that point.
When we got up to Jennifer’s room she was in a lot of pain but they had already told her she did not have cancer which they thought would have been Lymphoma. After all the calls to the family we met with our pastor and he believed this was a miracle.
Later we met with the surgeon again. He told us during the surgery the when they could not find anything they believed that it must have been “shadows” on the scan. I of course had to analyze the whole deal and requested all the Medical records. The CT scans were first read by the Radiologist, and then reviewed by the Pediatrician, Oncologist and the surgeon. It was hard to believe that so many Doctors had missed something.
Back to the beginning of the story when I saw the picture of the Radiologist this morning. I had forgiven her a long time ago if she had indeed made a mistake. As much as I want to believe it was a miracle there were signs that didn’t make sense to the Doctors. As I look back after all the years with a tremendous amount of spiritual growth I do believe it was a miracle. I also believe that Satan was doing his job by making us believe the worst possible scenario. He also was the reason I had that moment of hate for the radiologist this morning. But soon after that thought it was as God had whispered in my ear "Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven. Luke 6:37"
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